Rejecting the Fear of Rejection
I’ve always been a big daydreamer, spending countless hours lost in my imagination and coming up with new and creative ideas. I love inventing recipes, exploring new hobbies, and I am constantly rewriting the endings of movies and books in my head—or creating entirely new stories. It may not be a useful skill, but I am never bored or lonely! 😀 The downside is that I often get lost in my own head or stuck in a never-ending cycle of ideas without taking action.
The reason for the lack of action is a crippling fear of rejection, even though I’m proud of my ideas. I worry about what others will think and if they will see value in my work. Starting this blog and making myself vulnerable is especially tough in the age of social media. The thought of “keyboard warriors” posting rude and unkind comments is often overwhelming, but even worse is the fear that no one will comment at all.
Improving for Me
As difficult as this is, I know that I am doing this for myself. This is an exercise in challenging myself and evolving into a better, stronger version of me. I am not doing this for approval; I’m doing this for my own well-being. If others enjoy my random musings, great. If not, that’s okay too. My focus is on my progress. I want to improve as a person. I want to make the world a happier, brighter, better place, even if it is only in a small way. Everything is a chance for growth, even if I fail, I am still learning. At least that is the mindset I want to carry forward.
It’s Not a Fault, It’s My Superpower
The first step towards that growth is this blog itself. I’m writing to share the constant dialogue in my head and guide those thoughts in an optimistic and productive direction. I want to view the round-the-clock mental chatter in a positive light rather than seeing it as an obstacle. I want to turn what I always saw as a fault into my SUPERPOWER. It won’t be easy, but nothing worthwhile ever is. As a part of this journey, I need to fully embrace all my quirky qualities. As I said before, I am perfectly imperfect (read more here), and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Let’s Evolve
Change is hard, but I plan on focusing on the six elements of health as I evolve. This means taking care of my emotional, intellectual, physical, social, spiritual, and environmental health. I haven’t always been the best at taking care of myself. It is easy for me to look after others, but I rarely pause to check in on how I’m doing. I am naturally a people pleaser, and I tend to worry about others’ well-being while neglecting my own. Now, I get to learn how to do both. Some areas will be easier to tackle, while others will present countless challenges. I’ve actually started working on some of them already.
Endless Possibilities
I am not entirely sure how I will tackle all of these, but that is part of the process. I think the possibilities are endless. Maybe I’ll learn to paint, or travel to a new place, or revisit an old favorite. I recently bought a camera so I could take photos for this blog. Photography is challenging for me, and I am sure every picture will look the same, but I am going to try. I will improve, I will get better. Most importantly, I know I will spend more time being intentional and less time drifting aimlessly. I hope blogging not only gives me a sense of purpose but also a more well-rounded sense of who I am.
I also want to use this space to keep myself accountable. I hope to build a community with others who are seeking to reinvent themselves or who just want to join me on this journey. Hopefully, that includes you. I know putting myself out there opens me up to criticism, but it also opens me up to incredible potential. I don’t know where I will end up, but I am looking forward to the journey. I’m ready, the stage is set, and here I grow!
